Omg i havent blogged in like almost a year!!! i dont know y i stopped…maybe cause my computer broke…lol idk…but anywho im here now…so i guess i can maybe catch u all up on my life so far.

Where should i start?? Hmmm well i guess i can fill u in on guys from my past who r still very much present.

The Friend Zone Guy: We r still very much friends, even better now than before. Of course i still have feelings for him, but we r good, i give him more freedom. I even recently started talking to one of his close friends(his roomate). But he will always be my friend, whether we end up together or not. *shrugs*

The Jerk Guy: I havent talked to him in about 6 months and counting. Im giving myself a pat on the back as we speak cause thank God i got away from that hot mess. He was bad news.

Okay now back to present life, i am still basically on a mission to find someone to be serious about and with. And  have been kinda sorta looking all over. Even on twitter…lmao sad i know…

BUT i actually found a guy…we were first just friendly on Twitter, then we one day exchanged numbers and started talking all day and all night. We grew sooo close within weeks of talking. We actually talked about relocating to be with eachother. We looked up engagement rings, talked about ours lives together. We even had an arguement and he sent flowers to my house. I just KNEW i was in love………then slowly but surely i fell out of whatever this was i was in. And eventually i stopped talking to him. I felt bad for doing him this way, but i cant help my feelings and i wont force them.

I DONT KNOW WHAT IT WRONG WITH ME!!! lol